How do you know what to surrender to. How you know what the truth is. Remember the better the counterfeit the closer it is to the truth. The touchstone is your breath and consciousness. When you can still you mind and allow yourself to be immersed in the joy of pure consciousness you’ll recognized the truth. Free of fear, full of joy taking that step toward the infinite, learning to die while you’re still alive, learning to die so you can be alive. Consciously watch your breath. God is not far, it’s very, very near, and it’s just right behind your breath.